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Goodnight my Pirate; my Pirate, goodnight - Ldy, the lemony, ligerish ducttaparian's Magic Treehouse of Lost Thoughts
A classy broad's life... with footnotes.
ldy
ldy
Goodnight my Pirate; my Pirate, goodnight
How do I put into words the ending of such a thing?

Not to say it hasn't ended, and begun, and ended and begun... but there's a certain finality in the warmth of the Florida weather.

Jwo must know. She didn't even question the mysterious meeting of the onagain-offagain when I thought of a lame excuse for the waterworks. Usually she'd beg for dirt, or wait for me to leave. I'll have to thank her someday for feigning ignorance.

They say the ending of relationships require mourning much as people do. OK, they don't say that, I usually say that. About time I listen to my own little words of wisdom, eh?

The tears flowed at the green door and through karaoke and haven't stopped since.

I didn't smoke during karaoke, though I just lit up a four month old clove. DAMN. I'm so glad I'm a nonsmoker. How did I ever smoke these things? Ick. *crumplecrumple*

Although I cry, and pathetically attempt to smoke, that's not to say that I regret. I don't regret a thing.

I only wish we'd gotten to go dancing.

Oh the thrill of the thought
That you might give a thought
To my plea--Cast a spell over me
Still I said to myself: Get a hold of yourself
Can't you see it can never be

You go to my head
With a smile that makes my temperature rise
Like a summer with a thousand July's
You intoxicate my soul with your eyes
Though I'm certain that this heart of mine
Hasn't a ghost of a chance in this crazy romance
You go to my head, you go to my head
You go to my head


There will be times, I'm certain, when I will wonder how different life might have been if that secret were shared earlier. So will you.

Don't wait when the next one appears.

"Do not seek enlightenment unless you seek it as a man whose hair is on fire seeks a pond." - Sri Ramakrishna.

Act on love no less fervently. It lies in waiting for each of us. It only requires that we be willing to embrace it when it comes.

Arr, me hearty. You deserve much happiness, and much love, whether you believe it or not.

Don't think that I will ever forget, or stop caring.

I won't.

I'm feeling all kinds of: I have the best fucking Writers; really, I do.
What I hear: ~Might never be cross, or try to be boss, but they'd never do~

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Comments
eyot From: eyot Date: July 1st, 2003 11:19 pm (UTC) (permalink)
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i hope that it was a gentle end.
ldy From: ldy Date: July 2nd, 2003 11:07 am (UTC) (permalink)
It was. But no less heartbreaking for its tenderness.
simplyred From: simplyred Date: July 2nd, 2003 05:14 am (UTC) (permalink)

...'Bittersweet', though the parting be; You have closed the
door softly, tenderly, & with the utmost kindness & grace.
'Tis exactly what I would expect, from a heart as Authentic, &
boundless as yours...for you have the ability & the gift; to sift
through the bittersweet, blow away the chaff...& draw into
yourself the learning, & the beauty, that was there for you.

...And now...my wish for *you*, Lovely Ldy, is that your heart,
& your Life, & your Love; might be filled with ~all~ of the
~*Beauty*~ that awaits you, in your Life...All of the ~*Beauty*~
that you desire... All of the ~*Beauty*~ that you possess within
you...All of the ~*Beauty*~ that is Love...& ~All~ of the
~*Beauty*~ that IS ~*you*~, as you welcome & embrace ~all~
of the Beautiful new adventures, that Life & Love have found you
so worthy of...:-)

...And if I might 'borrow' but a few lines from another 'Poet'...
one of my most Beloved Teachers, Kahlil Gibran, From; 'The
Prophet
'...only an excerpt, on; 'Beauty'...

"...And beauty is not a need but an ecstasy.

It is not a mouth thirsting nor an empty hand stretched forth,

But rather a heart enflamed and a soul enchanted.

It is not the image you would see nor the song you would hear,

But rather an image you see though you close your eyes and a song you hear though you shut your ears.

It is not the sap within the furrowed bark, nor a wing attached to a claw,

But rather a garden for ever in bloom and a flock of angels for ever in flight.

...Beauty is life when life unveils her holy face.

But you are life and you are the veil.

Beauty is eternity gazing at itself in a mirror.

But you are eternity...and you, are the mirror.
"...

...I wish for you All Things ~*Beautiful*~ & True, Sweet Lady.

Jody~
ldy From: ldy Date: July 2nd, 2003 12:52 pm (UTC) (permalink)
You made me cry. In that GOOOOD way :)

And "Beauty" is an amazing piece. I don't think I've ever seen it before...

...Beauty is life when life unveils her holy face.

But you are life and you are the veil.

Beauty is eternity gazing at itself in a mirror.

But you are eternity...and you, are the mirror."...



Yes, this rings true. So very true.

I've been meaning to pick up The Prophet for years now. I will make certain I do so this month.

Thank you :)
alcestis From: alcestis Date: July 2nd, 2003 05:33 am (UTC) (permalink)
Good bye pirate... hello love.
ldy From: ldy Date: July 2nd, 2003 12:53 pm (UTC) (permalink)
My life would make a great made-for-TV-movie.
scottobear From: scottobear Date: July 2nd, 2003 08:39 am (UTC) (permalink)
Color me a dastardly pod if need be, but Tough luck for the schmuck, though I agree.. *everyone* deserves love and happiness, as long as it's not at another's (or their own) expense.

I'm very happy that you've mostly untangled from that situation, and that a true blue love with seemingly functional emotions and affections is there and making you so happy.


*huggos*
ldy From: ldy Date: July 2nd, 2003 01:00 pm (UTC) (permalink)
Call you dastardly? Ach. NEVAH.

I know what you've seen of the situation and can see your pov. I haven't shared as much of the good as the bad here, simply because LJ acted more as a steam vent than a hope chest for the hopelessly clandestine.

I am happy for the true blue, too, and for having a wonderful virtual bro like you :)

*superhuggos!*
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