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In aww of coffee - Ldy, the lemony, ligerish ducttaparian's Magic Treehouse of Lost Thoughts
A classy broad's life... with footnotes.
ldy
ldy
In aww of coffee
I awoke to Michele's asking me if I'd called into work, because it was after 8.

That isn't a good thing.

A big linen-line on my face extended from my forehead, over my left eye, and all the way down my cheek. I looked like a comic book villian for hours.

That really isn't a good thing.

I ran downstairs to discover that Michele had made me coffee, out of the kindness of her heart.*

OK, that made everything better. :)

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Last night, I chatted with... eh, what should I call him? You know, that guy. He's very sweet and funny and a good conversationalist, but sometimes he elicits the Eek-or-Aww Response. For example:
He goes into his local convenience store while we're talking to buy milk. He asks me to pick two numbers, he picks two numbers. I pick another, he picks another. Voilà, lottery ticket. "You do realize," he said, "this is our first investment together." ; )**

Poll #139737 Eek or Aww?

You say:

Eek!
6(27.3%)
Aww.
9(40.9%)
Other (please describe in comments)
7(31.8%)

See? I know he's pulling my leg, possibly even testing me, but after one date it's still a little weird, non?

Other than the weirdness, he seems almost too nice (seriously, I'm not used to receiving such attention) and too... well-suited to me (our conversation ran the gamut from marketing to D&D to karaoke/Special KTV to Shakespeare to Eville Bugs of Doom), but it's hard to formulate a definitive opinion about him by phone. I think he's already formed a few on his end, though. He really does seem to like me. However, liking someone when you don't know them is all well and good, but is usually more a reflection of the liker than a true opinion of the liked. Liking someone when you know that person well, really well, and you like them anyway, now that's something worthwhile. I'm not going to jump into something headfirst simply because my ego is purrin', you know?

He is awfully nice, though.

Ah, well. Wait and see, wait and see. He's flying me to a wedding he's best-manning*** in June. Gut says "bad idea, bad idea, bad idea!" Brain says "oh, sure, just wait until he comes up for the show, then." Gut says "good point." Spleen steals Gut's wallet while he's busy conversing with Brain. Spleen wins the match!

And yet, my Id cries Arrrrr.

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I don't expect I'll talk about that guy here too often. I'd like to keep this journal pirate-friendly; horse-friendly, too. I also feel too exposed and vulnerable when I write in blood and bile. Anything pertinent I'll likely keep to myself or put behind a cut. I'm not going to self-censor completely, though. I do too much of that irl as it is.

Here I am, this is me, I like to share. Even if it's not always pretty or complimentary or what other people want to hear. I don't want any of my friendships, especially the most important ones, to be based on deception, even if it's for the express purpose of "being nice." Because lying is never actually "nice." But disclosure's another matter, and putting sensitive information behind a cut only seems to make sense.

So no facades, no best face. I hope that when you know me well, you'll like me anyway.

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Anywho, I'm looking forward to seeing a pirate again later today, and looking forward to rehearsal as well. I've developed a pretty strong subtext for Tit/Obe, and am curious as to whether my intention makes sense and reads to the audience, or just confuses things. Titania's a delicious role, and I plan on plumbing its depths and abandoning myself to its glorious heights.

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I wrote a great entry yesterday on my love life (there may not be a lot of it, but damned if what there is of it isn't convoluted!) as a one-act argument between my Id, Ego and Superego. It was really quite funny, but probably won't make it to print anytime soon. Too close to home, I think.

I might rewrite it and expand upon it as short fiction or a script.

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I haven't been on AIM in a dog's age. My apologies. Especially to horseofshadows-- I miss chatting with you, and truly do intend to set up a metrophotohost account (eep, what happened to the linkie?) to share my Sarasota photos and my NJ ones. I'm just up to my neck in spackle.

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Speaking of spackle, I've been attacking the crown moulding (rather than replacing it). This process is taking FOR-EVAH. I'm considering not going to Boston so that I can make more progress. There's more sanding to be done on the sills and the walls, and I don't even know what colour I'm painting the room, for heaven's sake.

However, I don't get to see Miss A very often (she's the one who moved to California), so I want to spend some time with her when she's so close by.

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This is a braindump, this is only a braindump. I meant to post this hours ago, but in my enfeebled and confused state didn't feel right about it.

I still don't, but I'm getting tired of writing and writing and writing only to stuff my thoughts away into little text files I'll never find again.

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* Truth be told, she used ground beans and water like everyone else.
** The winky face, while not verbally present, was implied.
*** I can too use best-man as a verb!
**** My organs often argue.

I'm feeling all kinds of: Hope you like me anyway
What I hear: but if you don't, it's still better than liking a faux me

29 tall tales or Tell me a story
Comments
mrs_puma From: mrs_puma Date: May 29th, 2003 02:31 pm (UTC) (permalink)
I picked the very waffley "other". (hey, if you can verbize best man, I can adverbize waffle)

On first glance, I thought "aww!". Then I saw that this was on a first date. That turned it to a little bit of "eek!". I suppose it all depends on the overall feeling you get from him. If it's more of a sweetness than slightly unstable stalker vibe - alls well. :-)

I'd say go with the flow, for now.
ldy From: ldy Date: May 30th, 2003 07:12 am (UTC) (permalink)
I'm a' goin' with the flowin' :)

Part of my brain goes "hee, that's sweet." The other part goes "eek! He's serious!" It's hard to know sometimes which side to which I should listen.

If I listen to both I get an odd "eekaww," or "awweek."

It's the mating call of the uncertain.
From: pokee Date: May 29th, 2003 02:35 pm (UTC) (permalink)

I'm trying, in my head, to formulate an intelligent comment...

spacklespacklespacklespacklespacklespackleSPACKLESPACKLESPACKLESPACKLE
ldy From: ldy Date: May 30th, 2003 10:15 am (UTC) (permalink)

I'm trying, in my head, to formulate an intelligent response

spacklespacklespackleTACKLE!
From: pokee Date: May 30th, 2003 10:17 am (UTC) (permalink)

spacklespacklespackleTACKLEOOF! :D
inspectorjury From: inspectorjury Date: May 29th, 2003 02:38 pm (UTC) (permalink)
God!!! When my organs pipe up, I end up in church!!
ldy From: ldy Date: May 30th, 2003 10:16 am (UTC) (permalink)
What is it you do, end-up in church?

And which end?!
inspectorjury From: inspectorjury Date: May 30th, 2003 10:31 am (UTC) (permalink)
Well if I'm piping up then it must be the end that toots.
elysiangirl From: elysiangirl Date: May 29th, 2003 02:43 pm (UTC) (permalink)
have i ever told you how adorable you are? i may have once or twice but i am ALWAYS struck by it when i read your posts!

ldy From: ldy Date: May 30th, 2003 10:17 am (UTC) (permalink)
You are a sweetie-- thank you for being so sweet :)

*bighugs*
grrrrrrrrrrrowl From: grrrrrrrrrrrowl Date: May 29th, 2003 02:57 pm (UTC) (permalink)
I'd think it was very sweet. My response would probably be a "I like a man who is all about sharing the wealth." Then again, I am a weirdo. If you've talked quite a bit since the date, it makes sense to me that he could really like you based on your conversations. :)
ldy From: ldy Date: May 30th, 2003 10:19 am (UTC) (permalink)
I'm really a pretty lousy conversationalist. Honestly. I nod a lot and try to look cute, and occasionally say very strange things.

Not really sure what my appeal is, but I seem to fit a lot of things on his "list."

I don't really trust lists, so maybe that's my problem!

I'm a weirdo, too. As is he. Which is the good part.
duinlas From: duinlas Date: May 29th, 2003 03:14 pm (UTC) (permalink)
I put in other, as well, evening it all out at 4 a piece (but with your fanboys and girls, you'll get several thousand responses soon enough)

I dunno... I mean... it's more of just a corny little thing to say. It belongs on Blind Date (the TV show) where lots of people do goofy little things like that. I mean, they're trying to show you a bit of their personality.

Why impose these strange rules as to "when" you're suppose to be goofy/nice/happy/silly/sexy? I think you know what you really thought. That's your first impression. But then you thought about it, and gee, maybe you're weird. But weirdness is good. Normal girls can't tame a wild man-eating couch (well, if you call it tamed.)

No one really changes, they just segfault and need to be rebuilt.
ldy From: ldy Date: May 30th, 2003 10:21 am (UTC) (permalink)
No rules... just various parts of me just seeing and saying different things.

I can't think of anyone who still entertains thoughts of my being normal. Back, couch, back!

No one really changes, they just segfault and need to be rebuilt.
If I used a fortune file, that would be in it.
neenerface From: neenerface Date: May 29th, 2003 03:15 pm (UTC) (permalink)
1) So no facades, no best face. I hope that when you know me well, you'll like me anyway I wouldn't present myself any other way to you, and I wouldn't want you any other way.

2) I would leave it alone since to acknowledge it validates it. It's to soon to even grapple with what the hell he meant. (I think it's a little corny but not Basic Instinct like) It's one of those let go things.
ldy From: ldy Date: May 30th, 2003 10:21 am (UTC) (permalink)
It's one of those let go things.

Yes, I totally agree :)
rhiannonstone From: rhiannonstone Date: May 29th, 2003 03:23 pm (UTC) (permalink)
"Considering not going to Boston"? I didn't know you were considering going to Boston! If you do end up going--er, coming--er, whatever--and you think you might have a spare couple of hours, please drop me a line so I can kidnap you for lunch or something. I'd love to spend some time with the Ldy.
ldy From: ldy Date: May 30th, 2003 01:30 pm (UTC) (permalink)
Hee. If I go, I may well be free for brunch or something Sunday!

I think I have your number at home... but in case I don't, could you email it to me?
rhiannonstone From: rhiannonstone Date: May 30th, 2003 02:37 pm (UTC) (permalink)
Done and done.
serendipity From: serendipity Date: May 29th, 2003 04:01 pm (UTC) (permalink)
The more I get to know you, the more I like you. But it's not *anyway*, it's *because*! THat is, I don't like you in spite of you, I like you because of you. So there. :P
oonie From: oonie Date: May 29th, 2003 04:20 pm (UTC) (permalink)
I voted a solid "AAW" because I am practicing giving people The Benefit Of The Doubt. He made a silly/cute statement that, if premeditated, would be "EEK" inducing; but if spontaneous and heartfelt then it gets the "AAW". See? Benefit Of The Doubt.

Of course, if y'all WIN the lottery then it becomes an "AAW YEAH BABY" and you'll have relatives and friends coming out of the woodwork; including emails from all and sundry asking "Couldn't you find it in your heart to pay for my LJ for six month because I'm giving my left lung to my goldfish?"

I wish NC would approve the fackin lottery already. I have a dollar and a dream, dammit.
price From: price Date: May 29th, 2003 06:00 pm (UTC) (permalink)
I meant to comment on your desire to kick cupid's ass... One of my friends is publishing a comic based on that. You can actually check out the first issue here.
3g0 From: 3g0 Date: May 29th, 2003 06:33 pm (UTC) (permalink)
Of course I like you anyway - I think revealing yourself and your vulnerabilities is what makes you lovely. You, my dear ARE lovely - you just worry too much. =)

That said, I'd go with your gut on the "Aww" vs. "Ew" vs. "Eh" thing. The gut is the thing that usually does not fail one in sizing up potential nice folks vs. potential scumbags.
simplyred From: simplyred Date: May 29th, 2003 08:22 pm (UTC) (permalink)


...I had to go with the, 'awww' response, as it struck me as just
one of those cute, sweet, little, meant-to-be-witty off-the-cuff,
'one liners'...completely innocuous, in my book...

...AND...as this IS, after all, a *public* forum...only YOU can
decide just _How_MUCH_ you're 'comfortable' sharing, as regards;
'The Inner Most Thoughts Of Ldy'...BUT, allow me to tell you from
my heart that, 'To Know *YOU* _IS_ To love you', & your
willingness to share openly the, 'Good The Bad, & The
Ugly Not-Always-AS-Attractive', is a large part
of what makes you so incredibly endearing...AND - as you dare to
show us *your* 'vulnerable' places...you make it feel that
much safer for ME to share *mine*, & to feel that I'm sharing them
with a Trusted Friend...:-)

...This guy sounds sweet, fun, & like a good conversationalist,
who happens to be pleasant company, as well... Why NOT approach it
from *that* standpoint - that of, 'a new friend', & just go out &
~*ENJOY*~ yourself, Sweetie...?? It doesn't _have_ to be the, 'Be
All, End All'...just, 'The Lovely Ldy; spending a wee bit of time
with someone who seems to truly appreciate _HER_, & her
companionship! ...I see little there that even a pirate could find
reason to raise a hook, about...;-)

...Lastly...please know that, ~every~ single time that you share
a piece of your 'Authentic Self', with us here...I come away,
feeling *Grateful*...because I invariably feel a bit 'less alone',
in this world; as there's sooo *much* inside of you, that *I* can
so relate to...:-)

...Do what Feels *RIGHT* -FOR- *YOU*, Sweet Ldy...&
the rest of us shall be here, cheering you on, & supporting you!
czircon From: czircon Date: May 29th, 2003 09:23 pm (UTC) (permalink)
I picked eek not so much because of weirdness as corny, makes-me-want-to-vomitness.
eyot From: eyot Date: May 30th, 2003 03:30 am (UTC) (permalink)
i voted for 'other'. it would _creep_me_out_ if someone said that to me on a first date. that is, unless i were totally smitten with him. or unless he is the type to wear his heart on his sleeve, in which case i'd think he was wonderfully open. corny, but maybe cute in a weird sort of way.
hitchhiker From: hitchhiker Date: May 30th, 2003 05:01 am (UTC) (permalink)
I'd go with 'eek' - gives off a wee bit of a 'trying too hard' vibe. But then again, what do I know about dating :)

Oh, and as other people have pointed out, the lifesharing is more endearing than otherwise. There's no 'anyway' about it. Heck, if I want to immerse myself in someone else's ever-idyllic world, I'll go chainread Wodehouse.

Major coolness points for the smoothly embedded poll. OTOH, if ------ represents a pagebreak, footnotes should remain within their -*-delimited sections, and not accumulate in a heap on the bottom of the post. :)
curiouscat2 From: curiouscat2 Date: May 30th, 2003 09:13 am (UTC) (permalink)

It's in our nature

I agree with mrs_puma
the mention of first date made me change my answer.
I don't have room to talk in my new relationship ( under 6 months )
I would flirt and win favor with little acts and tokens.
Maybe, reassurance? unsure.
You might be the first positive relationship that has come his way.
It was hard for me to accept a nice person that does nice things,
questions would arise.
" when is the other shoe going to drop ".
now i just go with the flow , and thank the universe that I gained wisdom to keep such a wonderful partner.
Your Gemini nature is one things that attracts him to you.
wish you both well.
bandicoot From: bandicoot Date: May 30th, 2003 11:00 am (UTC) (permalink)
I was trying to combine Eek and Aww, but no matter which way I twisted it, it ends up sounding too much like a dyspeptic crow ;)
29 tall tales or Tell me a story