May 26th, 2004


It's been four years and one day since I started writing this crazy thing.

1462 days. 1236 entries (erm, make that 1237). 18,599 comments posted. Another 15,842 received.

What a long, strange trip it's been so far.

Like any trip, it's had its ups and downs.

The biggest downside-- and I'm not certain it really is a downside-- is the pain. Opening one's heart to love means also opening it to pain, and empathy is a wonderful thing, even when it hurts... so the pain is not something I'd wish away, even though I do sometimes wish I could help those who are hurting. Then there's missing the folks who leave. Whether due to leaving livejournal on principal, shutting out people for safety concerns, or death, (and I've lost friends, not mere readers, to all three), loss is always painful to me here, and it lingers. But without loss, there cannot be gain.

And oh, all I've gained!

I've met people whose friendships have extended into meatspace, with whom I hope to laugh and love a lifetime.
I've met people with whom I will probably never share physical space, but who have become part of my daily life and thoughts.
I've been granted glimpses into the daily lives of hundreds of amazing people all over the world.

And with them, I've cried, laughed, giggled, smiled, danced, sent hugs, rolled my eyes, furrowed my brow, cursed like a sailor, played games, ached, and, of course, spewed the occasional liquid in surprise.

I've learned about a zillion different things.

I've learned about individuals, about people, and about human nature.
I've learned how to cook a chicken with a beer can, and countless other recipes.
I've learned what life is like around the world and around the corner.
I've learned about politics from both sides of the fence, and seen truth in both places.
I've learned a million and three little tidbits of info, and probably a thousand new words.

I've learned about different music, different cuisines, different political beliefs, different cultures, different opinions and different lifestyles.

And in the process, I couldn't help but learn more about myself.

Folks have been saying I've been touched in the head for years now. Ah, but if they only knew! I've been touched in the head, touched in the heart, and tickled on the funnybone.

And my heart's been unfolding like a bright June rose.*

I thank you; each and every one of you. Even you, stranger person, who just popped in from google on an unrelated search-- thanks be to you, too.**

That's it. No retrospectacle. No deep thoughts on life, love and the nature of geekocity. No bulleted list pointing you to my favourite entries from years past.

Just a thank you for making it all possible.

Thanks again. :)

Here's to spending another four years together.

Hugs to those who need 'em, those who want 'em, and those who don't run away quickly enough.

* Sometimes it gets a little hurt and closes up a little, but it always recovers, and continues growing.***
** It is my hope that someday, this will freak someone out just a little :) Write me, stranger person, and let me know it did!
*** Growing, like the Grinch's heart. Not growing like this.
**** I like how my playlist always has an appropriate song playing when I'm updating :) Mmm. Sweet and juicy heart!
  • Current Music
    Béla Fleck & The Flecktones - Pineapple Heart
king z

Skimming the gene pool since 2000


Name / Username:

Name Acronym Generator

OK, it really said "Lively," "Dashing" and "Yum," I like Carolyne better. Seems a bit more... comprehensive. Accurate, too!

Photo of the ZmanI got my new CDs in yesterday, and finished that celerity quest. SHEESH. The quest took just over three weeks. Whattapainintheneck ;)

The CDs are great :) I got Bela Fleck & The Flecktones' 3-disc Little Worlds, Beck's Mutations (I wanted Sea Change, but BMG's not carrying it; at least, not yet), Fatboy Slim's On The Floor at The Boutique, Coldplay's Parachutes and Mr. Bungle's California.

I have two accounts with BMG, but it's been a long time since I've purchased from them. They offered me Buy One Get Three Free, though, and only charged me twelve bucks and change for the three-disc set, so I couldn't resist. I ordered 'em right before I left for the weekend, and got 'em yesterday!! I may have to start ordering more often, now that I see how much more quickly they deliver these days. Three cheers for almost immediate gratification!

I think they just closed one of the memberships. They sent me the twelve-discs-for-one offer in the mail again... we'll see if they honour it ;)

I've FINALLY discovered how to force aperture priority and shutter priority on my new camera. I'm SO STOKED. So please to forgive if I start posting more photos. I'll try to keep 'em small enough for the dialuppers.

And I'm reading that book on Phi. MAN, IT IS SO COOL. I'd nearly forgotten how much Fibonacci sequences turn me on! :)

Yup, yup.

*twiddles thumbs*

Hmm. I need a distraction...

OMG! Look! It's a dancing cat!

A brief history of playing cards.

(both of those via xiombarg)

Whoa-- this is an ebay worth reading (via gamethyme):

It's become painfully obvious that I really have nothing to say, so I think I'll just go home and wallow in my own self-importance.

Or maybe I'll have a glass of wine and mow the lawn.

Yes, I think that sounds like a plan :)

Later, gators!
  • Current Music
    Mr. Bungle - The Air Conditioned Nightmare

Petit Mort

My God.

My inner geek just orgasmed, died, and went to heaven.

Paul, (who is independently studying for his GRE in literature), orgasmed, died, and went to heaven, as well.

MIT's OpenCourseWare

(completely and utterly worksafe)
  • Current Music
    Fleck, Bela - Punchdrunk