*smooch* (ldy) wrote,

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Life is surreal (Life is also cereal, but that's another story)

So many amazing and very surreal things have happened in my little world over the last couple days. Things that could be interpreted and bent to one's own emotional state. In other words, I could choose to be miserable over them or revel in them.

I look back at my life and my behaviors, and wonder at the choices I've made in the past. I truly believed for a very long time that my emotional state was a product of my environment, never realizing that it was my emotional state that shaped the situation and not the other way around.

Such astounding power I have in this knowledge! Like Dorothy's ruby slippers, I had it all along. I just never realized it. Once the power is realized, old patterns become evident, new paths suddenly appear and old familiar paths lead to new vistas. I took an old well-worn path last night, but with a new intention, and somehow, I'm not in Kansas anymore.

I choose to revel today, but I'm still feeling cranky and a wee bit stressed. I want to go home and curl up with the cat. Old habits and old perceptions die hard, I suppose. And new habits and new perceptions are no substitute for sleep.

In other news...

It appears that Eman will be joining M and I at DragonCon. I've wanted him to go for ages-- I know he'll love it-- but to quote every Star Wars movie ever made, I have a bad feeling about this. I don't like it when my intuition gets all wonky. Actually, that's not true. I like to encourage my intuition. But it is unsettling to feel like this.

I have a new closing date: August 14 or 15. Next week. This whole house thing has been so surreal. Will it ever happen? I probably won't truly believe it 'til I've been living there a week or two. There's no place like home, there's no place like home, there's no place like...

All this surreal is making me hungry. Time for lunch!

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